Saturday, December 10, 2005
Oh, man. So like, I think I had the best time ever tonight. It was so nice to be included with a group of people again. That doesn't happen often for me. And I guess that is all my fault, mostly. Because I'm basically just a loser that sits in the same chair all freakin' day long without moving at all. (Yeah. That was me today. I think up until about... yeah. 7 o'clock this evening I had only moved from my chair for the total of one hour. And that was only to run to the store to get some kool aide.)
Anyway, so Nicole and I went over to Ben's place tonight. Courtney was there as well as this girl named Emily. Taylor showed up a little later. We played spoons, the sign game, and murderer in the dark from about 7:30 until... nine. It was a lot of fun. Then Taylor and Courtney came and got some cookies from Nicole and I, and we headed over to Taylor's to watch "The Polar Express." Ben came over when it was almost finished. Ah. Can I just say it's good to be with people again?
As much as I do feel that way, though, I know it won't be a constant. Just because of the way I am. I have to be forced out of the house, even out of my chair, to go anywhere. I just don't have the strength anymore. I'm so burned out. Even now, after being so happy for the past five hours or whatever I find myself sinking again. I have got to figure out what is wrong with me.
Nicole and I are going to ride up with Alice and Jeff at noon to Salt Lake. Nicole wants to see the lights, so we will have to spend a few hours up there, but that's OK. I want to go to the Gateway and Toshiko's. I guess if we get bored enough I could always call some family to come and get us until the lights came on. OH! The Candy windows are up again this year, aren't they? I missed them last year. They didn't have them.
Blah. I've still got math homework to do before Monday. And I need to write a cover letter for a job that I want to apply for. I don't know if I will get it or not, but it is always worth a try. I need a job desperately. It would get me out of the house for one and also provide me with more cash. I sort of think that the cash is more important right now. I can't handle living this... this... tightly? Is that the word I'm looking for? Anyway, it's just too stressful for me. I haven' tog the money to provide for myself.
Speaking of money, I need to go to the bank tomorrow so that I can get some cash in case Nicole and I have to take the bus back here to Provo. And I need to go get gas becaues I'm practically running on empty now.
Ahhhhhhhh. Tomorrow is going to be busy! I have TLE at 10:30 (I forgot to take my paper in on Thursday, so I have to go again this week), then I'll have to run to the bank and get home before noon. I hope I can do it. I guess I will just have to read really short stories or something. Dang it. I wanted to go to the bookstore tomorrow, too, but I don't think I will have the time. I guess I can do that Monday when I am up on campus for finals and whatev.
So I talked to Kalia last night. I miss her SOOOOOOO much! I just about started bawling on the phone. Which, you know, really isn't that big of a deal because I do it often. But anyway, I guess she is hoping to come for a visit in January, she just doesn't know when. Jackson and I are trying to talk Chase into coming for a visit as well. As forward as he can be sometimes, he is still a good guy. And he makes me laugh. Not many people can do that.
I'm actually tired tonight. Prolly because I didn't go to bed until 4 am last night. About that, anyway. So I think I will go to bed within the next... Well, I'll give myself two hours, just to be safe. But hopefully it will be quicker than that because it is already almost 2 am. >.<
