Monday, December 12, 2005
78 freakin percent! What kind of score is that?! Gah. I'm such an idiot. I even studied for that one.
I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off all day long. Got up and ran to campus for my first final. Turned in my math assignments first, though. Went to the bookstore and bought some books to read over Christmas as I'm pretty sure that is ALL I'll be doing. Other than sleeping anyway (going up on my medication this weekend. I expect it will be all sleep for the next month. First week of winter semester is going to be hard). Came home and wrote a cover letter for a job that I'm applying for. I had to have the resume etc. turned in by 5 and basically sprinted up Maeser Hill. But at least I got to see Veronica today. I miss my friends from last year. (But, honestly, I can't blame them for not wanting to be around me. Not worth it.) Ran to the store after that. Had to get a few small items. Then we had FHE the minute I got back. Came home and finally relaxed after that. Ended up falling asleep. Tried not to, though, because I know I'm only tired due to depression. I'm scared of sleeping too much, really.
Bah. I'm in a lot of pain tonight. My finger hurts because I had a cousin scratch it yesterday. My leg hurts just because, and my head hurts. Prolly due to malnutrition. But I guess that's what happens when you don't really eat for two weeks.
I remember when these pants that I'm wearing used to be too tight. Now they're too big. I do need to start eating again. I know that. I just need to make a concious decision to do so. Wednesday I will definately eat.
Righto. I think I'm going to bed. I'm not even going to bother studying for my FAMLF 100 final. I just don't care. If I fail, then so be it. Just don't let them kick me out. I'd be devestated and irrational. Not a good thing to be.
