Monday, March 20, 2006
Th. does a svithe pretty much every week and I've been thinking for a couple of weeks now that I, too, might start svithing. Granted, this is an hour late of Sunday, but I slept most of Sunday and have just reawakened to grab a bite to eat so my blood sugar won't be so low in the morning that I feel sick. But I'm divagating in with this.
As amazing as this is, I had some thought during Relief Society today (the only part of Church not dedicated to lessons of Marriage):
- You cannot memorize your life. People often will prepare for talks and lessons by memorizing what is to be said. Often times we go through life planning exactly what will happen down to the last detail and memorizing it, only to be dissapointed and bitter when things don't turn out as we had planned. Just as missionaries now teach by the Spirit, so must we live by the Spirit, taking each day as it comes, still making goals, but allowing for the Lord's will to be done, not ours.
- We become perfect in love. This probably mean something different to every individual, but I'd like to connect a scripture (or two) to the thought.
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of sound mind.
I am a perfectionist. There is no getting around that. I've had OCD all my life and can't stand not being perfect. Not only this, but I have often found myself fearing my imperfections. This is only surface material, though. The truth of the matter is that I'm afraid to love. I'm afraid to get hurt and I'm afraid to let people anywhere near me. Dingbat told me upon one occasion that I am unapproachable. At first I was upset that he would even say such a thing, but then the thought came into my mind, "Well, that's what you wanted, isn't it?" (I've learned to be careful what I wish for, as I'm sure I've said before. I always get what I want in the end, and usually I don't want it after all. I call it "learning the hard way.")
Also on this matter, I have recently found myself in the position of needing to do something that I do not want to do. I'm scared to death to go forth and conquer; I'm scared to death of what the future holds for me, good or bad. Slowly, though, I am coming to learn: - The way is always provided. Sometimes you can recieve an answer before hand and still have to have your heart broken first. But(!) He will never leave us alone when he gives us our answer. He will carry us through the rocky terrain when we lose our shoes and our feet are bloody and sore, He will be there to hold our hand when we are so afraid that we don't think we can go on, and, in the end, we will make it so long as we keep in mind "Thy will be done, O Lord."
- We should always love. We should never be too afraid to love. Fear and love are opposites. Hate can often be a step towards love, but fear is a large leap away from it.
Sometimes, I think I'm a little slow. I am learning, though. At least, my Spirit is. Now I just need to have faith, hope, and convince my brain that I can do it!
"As I have been lifted up by men even so should men be lifted up by the Father" (3 Nephi 27:14). Our hardest trials will bring us Glory, Eternal Life, and Salvation. We do not have to carry them on our own for "[Christ's] yoke is easy, and [his] burden is light."
P.S. These are not all my own thoughts, so don't go giving credit where credit isn't due.
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