Wednesday, April 05, 2006
I'm supposed to be writing a paper, but....
Tonight Alice called me shortly after I woke up from a two hour nap wanting ot know if I would go to Blockbuster with her to pick out a movie. We snagged "Miss Congeniality 2," a pint of Ben and Jerry's, and three Jamba Juices on the way back. I admit, I liked the movie. Who'd've thunk?
We did have a lovely thunderstorm this morning. The wind was blowing, my window was open, and I was blessed with raindrops in my room.
This afternoon, just after class, I drove "home" to sign a contract for Fall/Winter. I've been feeling a little... unsure about the decision still, just because it is further from campus and I'm a bit worried about certain people that may or may not still be there, but as I walked up to the Office door, it felt right. I proved something to myself whilst I was there, too. I drove through the other side of the parking lot, just to prove I still could. Yeah, I had an anxiety attack, but I still did it.
Confession alert: I don't like to say things outloud. If I do, they become real, solid, even tangible. That's why I won't put in writing the things I really think. That's why I'm still denying so many things. You'll have to pry it out of me. End Confession.
Behold the Muse
