Monday, June 25, 2007
it just hits you. Like a tidal wave. No, more than that. Like a hurricane and a tsunami (ha! sorry, most -if not all- of you have no hope of understanding that reference) rolled into one and you feel like you're drowning, drowning, drowning, and treading water isn't even an option, and you can't swim up to the surface. All you can do is accept the fact that the effort it would take to find the air above you isn't worth all the trouble and it's just better to let yourself drown. But you can't stop breathing and your heart keeps beating and your eyes are wide open, wondering when it's going to end or if it will ever begin; it's like you're stuck in limbo, and there's nothing you can do about it except drift in that impenetrable wall of water that engulfs all your senses. You just wish you could break free, one way or the other, and by the time you finally do it starts all over again. There's no one to save you, to help you, and the only person who could possibly throw you that life-line is far away with no idea that they are the one to have caused this, they are the one that shook your world and made you see things a little differently. Yet, at the same time, it's all your fault for being so stupid.
Sometimes it just hits you like that.
Always remember: wherever you go, there you are!
