I love planning them. I'm planning one right now. With SL. (Don't worry, if we stay overnight we'll get separate rooms.) I can't believe he's actually going for this.
Speaking of which, where should we go? When should we go? (Not that you have any say in the latter. It all depends on flights and whatever.)
I am smiling so hard right now. You don't even know. (Highlight to see the answers)
Why does Tigger bounce through the 100 Acre Woods? He doesn't want to step on Pooh How does Eeyore like his salad? Lettuce alone... (in an Eeyore-ish voice)
If this is how the whole summer is going to feel, I'm in big trouble. Big with a capital "B" kind of Big. See, here's the thing. I really, really, really, a lot really am in need/want of something that only one person can give me. And I'm really confused again. I don't know what's going to happen. And, basically, I'm very afraid and very... doubtful about Things.
Mostly I hate that I can't open up to anyone, no matter who they are.* I hate that I can't trust, and I hate that I can't know the end of every story.
What if, then? What if I never talk to SL again? What if I do? What if I have to learn to trust him? What if I can't? What if he is willing to go to all that effort to gain my trust and I can't give it to him? What if he's not? What if I go to all that work to trust him and he's not trustworthy? What if it's someone else? There are so many "what if's" in this world. I wish everything could just be set in stone and be done with.
I wish all the world could be spent in Disneyland.
I wish a lot of things. But mostly, right now, I just wish I could talk to him for even five minutes.
I did warn him, you know. I told him I'm quite skilled at ruining relationships. Any given relationship I could ruin in less time than it takes to build said 'ship.
*You, faithful readers, probably know me better than most everyone else (save my parents and, possibly, my bishop). But do you even know me that well? Do you know the things about me that matter? Can you tell me how I've changed in the past 1+ year? Do you know my deepest fears, darkest secrets, and brightest hopes/dreams?
What Now is that in approximately two hours I will be in my car on the way to the airport. In approximately four hours I will be in the air on the way to Orange County (California). And then I will be where it is sunny and warm and I won't have a care in the world (for a few days, anyway). And tomorrow I will be at the Happiest Place on Earth enjoying myself most immensely.
My K, I will buy you a present. I promise.
I'll buy a few other people presents, too, but they don't read my blog (I don't think...)
Hopefully by the time I get back to town I will have forgiven University Parking for trying to ruin my life (they haven't succeeded, yet). Hopefully when I get back to town cleaning checks will be long over and Managers will have taken pity on me and passed me even though I won't be here to defend myself. Hopefully when I get back to town I'll be able to handle being in SF's presence for a short time.
And most Hopefully: hopefully I will have figured a few things out and I'll know how to deal with what's going on in this life that I'm about to take a vacation from.
Boy, you know? It's a good thing I love being alive so much or I'd be just about willing to give up right about now. Especially after tonight. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
"At times we may despair that our burdens are too great. When it seems that a tempest is raging in our lives, we may feel abandoned and cry out like the disciples in the storm, 'Master, carest thou not that we perish?' (Mark 4:28). At such times we should remember his reply: 'Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?'... "'Commune with the Lord.... He is your best friend! He knows your pain because He has felt it for you already. He is ready to carry that burden. Trust Him enough to place it at His feet and allow Him to carry it for you. Then you can have your anguish replaced with His peace, in the very depths of your soul.'" -He Heals the Heavy Laden- Elder Dallin H. Oaks
You should all know I love these things by now. I don't know, there's just something exciting about divulging my deepest secrets (or possibly shallow secrets) with the blogosphere. Anyway, If you Ask it shall be Answered.
1. I don't know. Would you like to ride with Batman? I don't think so. He seems like a bit of a show-off to me. Plus, I don't get into cars with strangers.
2. I'm just curious, but, maybe, um, do you maybe have a hard time remembering that you are wherever you go? Yes, yes I do. Sometimes I think I leave part of myself somewhere else and it takes a while for Part to catch up. Especially when I'm daydreaming or what have you.
3. Is better to be born in a 30-day month, a 31-day month, or February? Why? Well, generally I'd be inclined to say a 30-day month because it's an even number and divisible by 10, but having been born in a 31-day month I feel a little obligated by it. I mean, I could have been born 3 days late instead of 10 days early and been born in a 30-day month. But I wasn't. And I like my birthday where it is, thank you.
4. Good news! The U.S. Olympic Committee has accepted you as a team helper! Which sport did you apply to help with? Wow! Really? Me? They chose me? Cool! I could be the most awesome Figure Skating helper. (Except that I can't skate for the life of me, but that's not the point. However, you did just remind me of someone that can skate whom I wouldn't mind going skating with...)
5. America is going to be 300 years old in only 69 years! How are you planning to celebrate? Woah. I'll probably still be alive, too. Weird. I guess there's no time like the present to plan for the future, eh? Umm... I think I'll celebrate by being healthy, having my own teeth intact, and eating lots of cake and ice-cream. And maybe, if I'm rich, I'll give $300 to each of my 300 grandchildren.
Want to play? Drop me a line and I'll give you five questions all your own.
Roast Beast Carrots Potatoes Green Beans Rolls My Favorite Roommate and... A really hot date (shh... Don't tell. It's a secret.)
I am so excited. I can't even tell you how excited I am. I am more excited about slaving away in the kitchen all day tomorrow and having to do dishes just so I can clean up after myself than I was excited about Free Cone Day at Ben and Jerry's today. And that must be saying something because I've been talking about the latter for MONTHS.
P.S. If you have any ideas for desserts, speak now. I've got about... 15 hours to plan. But no brownies, please. We've had enough of those around here for a while.
Happy, beautiful Sunday! (And boy, is it gorgeous out there.)
Today in Relief Society we were talking about Prayer. They were saying how you almost always get the little things you want (ie: help finding lost items, such as keys) but that you're not always going to get the bigger things you want (that job, $10,000 in the mail, etc.). And I wanted to say this, but I didn't. So I say it to you, now. Sometimes you do get the big things. It's not always going to be something that you should have, but Heavenly Father lets you have it so you can learn something from it. So remember that.
I'm confused. I want to know what he means by it. But mostly I want to know if I can trust him or if I'm setting myself up for another majorepisode. Should I say something?
I love this commercial. Thank you, My K, for showing it to me. Now I want the rest of the world to know of its existence, and that is why I share it now.
Time to register. In 15 minutes, anyway. Trouble is, I don't really know what classes I want to take. Work kind of gets in the way of some of them, too, because I have to leave my Tuesdays and Thursdays free. Completely. At least until 5:00. But I'm kind of against evening classes, so it doesn't really matter. I've only got one class that I really want to take; it's only one credit, though. Problem, yeah?
School is turning into such a hassle. Don't get me wrong, I love to learn. But I've learned so much that interests me already that I'm running out of classes to take. I have no idea what I'm going to do come Winter semester. Maybe I'll just have to go find a real job for a while until I can get into my major. You know, take a semester off and work on my portfolio. Since I missed the deadline. Again. Pfft.
Anywho-diddies. Excuse me while I go browse the classes that are being offered. Pray that I will be able to get at least 9 credits of semi-interesting courses.
I just sneezed. All over my hand. Except it was a dry sneeze, so it doesn't really matter. Point is, I think I have allergies. I mean, sure, I know for a fact that I'm allergic aspens (well, 100% probably sure, anyway). But I haven't really seen any of those around. What is it that is making me sneeze? Is it the asparagi at work? Is it because someone is thinking of me (ha!)? Am I just allergic to Cougar Town? Please vote.
Did you know that shamrocks go to sleep at night? Or, at least, mine do. Weird.
On another note, I'm cold. My teeth are chattering. My innards are shivering. I can't imagine why. Maybe it has something to do with that pint of ice cream I just ate? ... Nah.
I am completely loving the fact that I am the only one in the apartment. No offense, My K. It's just nice to not have to put up with people sometimes.
On the flip side, though, I'd much rather I were still at home with the fam and the cat. Even if the infamous mockingbird did wake me up at 3:00a with its beautiful song.
It's Easter. That means Lent is over. But that doesn't mean I'm quiting my goal. Just so you know. It does mean that I'm keeping it and adding to it another one, of which I am not speaking of just yet.
B.C. Copyright Johnny Hart 3/31, 2002 (this being the comic I was looking for last year. I had to scan it myself. Oh, well.)
My sister met... who is it... Obert Skye? She's so excited about it but upset that I didn't want him to sign one of the books to me. Sorry, sister. I prefer the plot in my books to not be quite so... convenient. And, hey, more for you, right?
On another note, I've been snarfing down salt water taffy's all day today.
And on yet another note, sometimes (and no offense meant by this) I wish my blog were still unknown to real-life people. It's weird how there are some things that you are totally OK with total strangers reading but as soon as someone you know finds out about It, you wish you'd never mentioned it to anyone.
No, actually, I wish I had my own bathroom again. Then it wouldn't matter that Fayce beat me to the shower.
So much for getting to bed early. I hope she doesn't take all the hot water. Again. I'm getting tired of cold showers. Especially when I don't want to wake up, but rather go to sleep.
There are no fools today, even though it was, you know, April Fools' Day. I say this because of Elder Holland's conference talk yesterday. And on that note, another song:
Let us oft speak kind words to each other At home or where'er we may be; Like the warbling birds on the heather, The tones will be welcome and free. They'll gladden the heart that's repining, Give courage and hope from above, And where the dark clouds hide the shining, Let in the bright sunlight of love. ... Let's oft, then, in kindly tone voices, Our mutual friendship renew, Till heart meets with heart and rejoices In friendship that ever is true. -Text by Joseph L. Townsend
Yeah, so seven (7) more days of class. For me. Because I only work TTH. Except sort of only 6 because I can't go to class on the 13 (I don't think). I AM SO EXCITED!
Go see the rest of them. Now.
December 31, 1992-Spring 2006
